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The Audition
Last
week, we had choir auditions to determine what groups we will be placed in next
year. I have never even done choir
before this year, and I started slightly before Christmas, when the choir
director, who also happened to be my AP Music Theory teacher, convinced me that
I should do it. I said sure, I’ll try
it, and he was very pleased with himself.
Anyway, I was forced to participate in these choir auditions if I wanted
to have the option of doing choir again next year.
The
auditions consisted of a choice between either America the Beautiful or My
Country Tis of Thee, and then some other pop song of your choice, until they
cut you off. It was to all take place on
Tuesday starting at 3:00 and continuing until about 7:00 or 8:00, or until
everyone had finished auditioning. I
will have you know that nothing in the world terrifies me more than singing
alone in front of people. Maybe dancing; I don’t know. Therefore, I was extremely dreading this
choir audition. It also didn’t help that
we had a choice when we auditioned, in that we could go in at any time, and all
we had to do was write our name down immediately beforehand. Right after school, I went down there, and
there were heaps of people, so I decided I would come back later, and go home
first. I came back around 7:00, and
fretted around for an hour before the door lady practically dragged me in. She had been repeatedly telling the directors
for the past thirty or so minutes that I had been waiting outside for four
hours, too afraid to go in. For my first
song, I did My Country Tis of Thee, just like mostly everyone else, and then
for my second song, I suddenly decided to sing Smoke on the Water. However, after two or three lines of the
song, I forgot what came next, and awkwardly stopped, at which point the main
choir director said, “Alright, you’re done!”
Afterwards, everyone asked me how I did, and I basically told everyone
that I had been so freaked out that I didn’t even know if I was good or
not.
Afterwards,
I asked myself why singing alone was so frightening for me. I finally determined that the difference
between singing and playing horn is that on horn, I have had private training
for years, I know how I’m supposed to sound, and I know that I’m good. I have developed a great deal of confidence
through several high pressure solo situations, in front of professionals who
know exactly everything that I’m doing right or wrong. The difference with singing is that I lack
this confidence. I have never had a
private lesson in my life, I’ve never had to perform before, I don’t know how
it’s supposed to sound when I sing, and I know that compared to everyone else,
I have almost no preparation. At least,
that’s my best explanation.